-I just assumed we’d have a happily ever after ending too, darling, (like all those teens in magazines and fairytales) with
roses and flowers and-(don’t even bother explaining it to me again, I might just .it.(I fell for you, didn’t I?)) I just wish
I’d had the sense to not throw my heart away (for kind words and a flirtatious boy) for n.o.t.h.i.n.g.
(your mask has cracked, and I can’t get that image out of my mind(you pressed your lips to hers and my heart broke(hiding
and holding a rose-Surprise, darling, I love you))) that’ll last as long as the pain. So content to wait that extra hour whenever
you were late, I just assumed you were really held back(not in the locker room shower with that thing you called your “friend”)
and that you loved me (I thought you did, I thought you did, but I’ve just made an ass out of myself(whispering not-so-secret
feelings to friends, we’d giggle together and I’d pull my sleeves down(I didn’t need it as long as you loved me) and
confess how much I cared)) like I loved you. My razorblade gathering dust in the corner and my rubber bands put away in the
desk drawer (old friends I relinquished for your approval) .. and exactly what made me tick (you knew me
better than anyone) but it didn’t seem to matter. You still threw me away for some whore
(I tried to tell you I wasn’t good enough, remember, but you still said I was perfect(even with the scars))
that had nicer tits and blue eyes.