It is ten twenty

And I am still awake

Thinking of my best friend’s

Biggest mistake

We joked and laughed

When she was ten days late

Little did I know

It would lead to her biggest mistake

Growing up too fast

Listening to slow

Oh I should have known

I’m her best friend

I’m supposed to be there

But it is her actions I don’t want to defend

Oh how I wish I were there

But I was there

I was there when you took the test

There when you told your mom the mess

There when you came to me

When you were kicked out by your family

There when the father fled

There when you put a gun to your head

There when you cried

There when made the appointment

And there when you lied about it.

You took a life

And I don’t know if I can forgive you

Friends till’ the end

That was the promise

But a mother at 15

Brought no solace

So I drove you to the doctor’s

And held your hand while they killed that barely life

I was numb; I said nothing

I closed my eyes and pretended I saw nothing

I guess I was there.

But I guess I never really was, was I?