A/N: This is my first main story. I have a few chapters already made. Hopefully I will get some reviews. As for punctuation I have proofread but I'm sure there will be mistakes and I'm all ears for Criticism.

Chapter one

Maybe I could impress her and make something witty like Alex did, I doubt that would work. I’m not witty or Alex. Maybe I should just sleep and wait until tomorrow. I looked over at my computer screen: 12:30am. “Hmm” I thought to myself, thinking for 5 minutes strong I decided to sleep it over and wait until the morning.

“Casey” she said softly peering through my door. “I’m coming Mum” I answered. I hate getting up in the morning. I couldn’t be bothered having a shower this morning, I did have one last night so I don’t see the difference. I opened my cupboard and took one of my ironed blue t-shirts and grey pants, tie, socks and shoes. Chucking them onto my bed I sat on my computer chair and checked my emails. JUNK mail is stupid, stupid, stupid, all junk mail except! Uh….an email from Alice, ok junk mail. I deleted all my emails and turned of my computer screen.

Alex wasn’t my sought of friend. More like the person I envy, it’s not that I’m gay but you have to admire him, he is there everything I never had. I was staring at him, he was talking to Sam. Lip reading everything he said, I guess that he was handing off some quick neat phrase or something from a poetry book, that stuff she likes.

Sam noticed my eyes glaring at them; she went to call out my name. I walked fast through the hall before she could. I don’t want to be a third-wheeler it’s so obvious there into each other. The other day I saw them at that little coffee shop on James Street.

I started to walk to my English class. The siren screamed through the hall and everyone was on their way. I walked slowly until I was alone in the whole except a few year eights, once they cleared I started humming that song from last year that me,

Dawson and Sam use to sing. “I was crying over you
I am smiling I think of you
Where your garden have no walls
Breathe in the air if you care, you compare, don't

Say farewell”

Well Dawson did leave and Sam and me hardly speak anymore I guess Dawson was the interrupter between us, now he’s gone were back to ice.

I walked up the stairs and into the class room; I excused myself for being late and took my seat.

I was sitting by myself in middle row, Dawson use to sit next to me but now I’m alone; I guess Sam would be sitting with me to. DAWSON WHY DID YOU DIE? I thought screaming into my head. Trying to hold back tears I looked at who returned to class this year. Skipping around the classroom until I found Sam, this time she was staring at me.

Sam was sitting two rows in front of me; in her hand was a note. She was shaking her hand and urging me to take it. I was about to ask Katie to pass it to me but she already had. I opened the letter up:

Casey

How come you were staring at me and Alex before 1st period? What’s up with you? You have been acting weird ever since the Dawson incidence. I still have feelings for you know, but I don’t what’s going on with you. Maybe we should hangout sometime like we use to?

From Sam

I chucked the letter in my bag only half reading it. She looked at me and shrugged her face looked a little sad. I hate it when she is sad. Maybe I should just meet up with her; I have been avoiding her since the holidays. I said I was going on some big holiday so she wouldn’t ring me, I think she knows that I wasn’t away.

I got my pen out and wrote back:

Sam

Sorry, meet me after school by that creek near the park, the one where Dawson broke his arm.

Casey

I passed the letter to Katie who gave it to Sam. She read it and smiled. I’m happy Alex isn’t in our class; she’s different when he’s around. The teacher was scowling at me because I hadn’t started any of my work. I took out my writing book and pen and started to write. When the teacher went back to reading her teacher notes I skipped to the back of my book and wrote:

I will join Him, I say
Growing old in our tales,
Our minds were always frail,
But we weren’t dumb, were we?

My blade was the one that hurt me.

When school finished I walked home but I took the long way cutting through the streets and along the beach. The beach was never relaxing back when Dawson was here and Sam. We always made everything LOUD.

“Oh my god” I shouted, remembering that I was meant to meet Sam at the creek.

I ran all the way up the hill and through the streets back to the school and then I ran to the creek from there.

I walked slower as I got to tree where I, Dawson and Sam use to sit at. The tree came into view; I hadn’t been here since the day before Dawson died, when he confessed all his lies and secrets. Sam was waiting there. I felt bad for being late. As I got closer I saw someone else there, it was Alex. My smile faded. I didn’t feel to sorry for being late now. I walked up to them.

“Yo Casey” Alex said, with so much joy I could explode.

“Hey” I muttered, “I didn’t know you were coming” I said even sadder, I thought I was actually going to get to talk to Sam.

“Yes, I thought it would be fun if we all hanged out” Sam said happily.

I gave her a small (fake) smile. “Well I’m sorry but I can’t stay” I lied; I walked of without saying goodbye.

As I passed around the corner I ran all the way back to the beach and sat on the sand, crying. I don’t know why. Maybe because I’m not Sam’s favourite anymore, she says she still has feelings for me, I guess she just feels sorry for me. But I can’t believe she thinks she can just replace Dawson with Alex.

I can’t believe her.