Leaving the Past Behind

Eyes widen

Breath quickens

Heart races

As I see her walking towards me

And suddenly I want to flee

It’s been so long

Everything between us is wrong

Can she see how I feel?

I wonder if this is for real

Or if I am dreaming

I feel guilty, betrayed, angry, sad

When I think about all we had

Does she feel the same way?

Remember when we used to play

And everything was okay?

Before, we were friends

Now I barely know her

The years have gone by in a blur

We used to be so close

Until the fight broke us apart,

Leaving an ache inside my heart

That has never fully healed

Sometimes I don’t recall

Anything that happened at all

Not even what the fight was about

And I can’t help but doubt

That we fought for the right reasons

Because looking back, it all seems so stupid

Although it felt important at the time

Now that she has reached me

I don’t know what to say

And before I know it, she’s glancing away

Our stare is broken

Ignoring me, she walks on, down the hall

As though she never saw me at all

Back up, goes the wall

Between us

I fight the urge to call

Out to her

Because things have changed,

Lives have been rearranged,

Nothing is the same

I have known this for awhile

It’s time to stop dwelling on the past,

To move on at last

This is how it is

I have to accept it

And let go

So once again, we go our separate ways

And this is how it stays

For now

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A/N: I don't like this one as much as my other two, but I thought I'd go ahead and post it. I'd appreciate any feedback, especially since this is only my third poem. So, let me know what you think. Thanks for reading!