Another

The world’s closing in on me

I fear soon I won’t be able to breathe for this weight

Something’s crumbling, is it me?

Not even three days

And you’ve already made your expectations clear

I feel smothered.

I shouldn’t have to dread this

I won’t say I can’t change it

But I don’t have the will to tweak my soul

I’m at my best when I’m alone in a crowd

I fear the worst when I come home.

If I’m crushed so this early

Tell me, what happens when I bleed later?

I don’t think my appearance reflects who I am

But I don’t want to be just another queen of angst

“crying out, can anyone hear me?”

I’m just no different from the rest, no matter how I try

Inspiration, where are you?

And what is keeping me okay these days?

I’m talking to my heartbeat

So scary, when I think about it

I’m so confused.

Do I want this life or don’t I?

I say like I’m suffering

But I’m so superficial, hypocritical

I guess this is when I find out who I am

Why must it be so painful?

tears&blood

Goodnight and goodbye.

-11:11 P.M.