Finding Voice

The ocean crashes in my ears,

The wind batters against my soul.

Noises assault me and yet,

A silence consumes me into a world

All its own.

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My pen used to let me bleed,

Pour myself onto the pages,

All of the painful memories

Spilling out into symbols, letters

Giving my feelings life.

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Now, all I feel is despair,

Shadows of the past

Dance around in my mind

To a song without sound

Without my words to give it voice.

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When did the world become too much for me?

Words fail me, slip through my hands,

Each moment a tiny grain of sand

Spilling everywhere,

Everywhere but my blank page.

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I listen for the words,

Those beautiful, comforting words

To come to be through the silence

Adding music and life to my world,

Making it bearable.

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Tangled, knotted to impossibility,

I can't make sense of my feelings,

The emotions, ink upon the pages

Making up the blood of soul;

It is all lost to me.

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Somehow I will make it through,

Find the words I seek lost within

A place overflowing with emotions,

Hiding what I so desperately seek.

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I feel them.

They are somewhere,

Crying out for me

To set them free.