Fading Away

Your hand, white as the curtains of the cold room
A breath, too shallow to be heard at once
I have always known that we would meet again
But I never thought our reunion would be like this

Reaching out to caress that lifeless limp, I tremble
Fighting against the tears which are building up
Even now I try to be strong for you, but
Isn't it already too late?
Or am I just paralyzed?

I want to scream, to get rid of this pain
Which I feel deep inside of me
I want to rescue you from the darkness
Bring you back to the living
But I'm damned to stay here, all useless
Unable to help you fighting
You're fading away ever so slowly
And I can do nothing
Do I have to let you go?

It seems like only yesterday, the last happy times
In truth, we haven't seen each other for so long
But you were always so close by my side
You know, I held you dear inside my loving heart

All the memories we shared, our moments together
The wind is carrying them away, along with you
What remains is my half of our past, but
Can I keep them, forever?
Or will time erase it all?

I want to scream, to get rid of this pain
Which I feel deep inside of me
I want to rescue you from the darkness
Bring you back to the living
But I'm damned to stay here, all useless
Unable to help you fighting
You're fading away ever so slowly
And I can do nothing
I can only let you go

I adored you, you have always been so confident
Strong and kind, a person one can only like
But all these years I never got the chance to tell you
Did you know how much you actually mean to me?

My heart is breaking apart, as slowly as your spirit
Tears are running down my face like endless rivers
The truth is always hard to take, but
Why can't I give up?
Or am I just desperate?

I want to scream, to get rid of this pain
Which I feel deep inside of me
I want to rescue you from the darkness
Bring you back to the living
But I'm damned to stay here, all useless
Unable to help you fighting
You're fading away ever so slowly
And I can do nothing
But I won't give you up

Grasping your hand, I wish for you to keep fighting
Please try, there's so much this world can give
Don't leave your loving ones here all alone

Oh, please come back
For us

I cannot remember how much I cried when I wrote this nor how many times I started crying when reading this. I wrote this when a real tragedy had fallen upon my family. Out of the blue, my uncle had a serious heart attack, had to be reanimated and lay in a coma for several days. Our entire family was paralyzed. My aunt and my cousins were totally devastated, my grandma couldn't stop crying even my strong mama was crying whenever she thought no one would notice. Dad was the only pillar of strength during that time as even I, though I never cry openly in such situations, wasn't able to focus on anything. My uncle woke up a few days after I finished this and has recovered nearly completely by now. And I learned one important thing: never give up, no matter how hopeless things might seem.