Nous étions si beaux...

Karasu 092106

I didn’t have time to react.

The first blow hit too hard.

First, Tyr and I were talking, then my face was aching and he was standing over me, screaming. I couldn’t hear a thing, for my ribs were being crunched at the same time. It hurt. Oh, God…

He hurt me…

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“Beau…”

My body wasn’t responding to what I was telling it. I couldn’t call out to Ezra’s voice. It hurt when I tried.

No, Ezra, don’t leave me!! Don’t say your good-byes yet!!

“I’m awake!!”

Brown hair fanned as Ezra turned back around. His eyes were alight as he looked at me. He heard me that time…

“Beau!!” At once, I had around one hundred and ten pounds of man-meat on me. Sobbing. He was worried about me.

“So, you’re finally awake??” Lucifer’s voice floated into the room, echoing. God, you don’t know how good it was to hear that sound. Luci’s comforting baritone.

No matter how many times he had hurt me in the past, it was nothing compared to the hurt I was going through now… I don’t think that anything can compare to that.

“My body didn’t work, so I was trying everything.” I explained. Ezra grinned, his tiny form being hugged by his boyfriend, since I was incapable.

They were so cute together. Really. Tyr and I were—

Wait… Tyr… He did this to me.

I looked down at the IV in my arm, then at the random machines. The stark white sheets. The flowers that my friends had sent.

“Beau, what’s wrong??” Ezra was at my side immediately, wiping my face with a soft thumb.

It was then I realized that I was crying. Bawling. Real tears were escaping my eyes, running down my cheeks, collecting on the blanket I was clutching onto.

“I just… you guys…” I couldn’t speak. Sobs racked my body, popping my broken ribs in and out of place. Nothing could stop me.

I needed to cry.

“Beau, we love you. We want to help you. Now, tell us… who did this to you??” Ezra asked quietly, as if he was afraid of his own voice. I couldn’t blame him. He was asking the one question I didn’t want to answer.

And, as much as it hurt my friends and me…

I didn’t.

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“Beau… Tyr… he jumped.”

I remember Ezra’s voice. That night, we were all sad. Tyr, the love of my life, jumped. He committed suicide.

Never did it strike me before how much I missed him. Of course, he put Eden in the loony bin, he beat me unnecessarily, and he wasn’t that good of a friend… but he was mine.

My Tyr.

My God of War.

I just can’t believe that he killed himself. And, apparently, no-one could. Lucifer went into a bit of a rage. Ezra wouldn’t stop crying. Eden was silently somber.

Just… no-one could believe it…

It was after that I stopped eating. I locked myself in my room. My friends were worried… angry. But I just couldn’t stand the thought of living without Tyr. He was my world. My life revolved around him…

And now my world was dead…

My life… gone.

I knew I wouldn’t come out of this alive.

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“Beau… please, wake up.”

I could hear Eden’s voice clearly. His tenor becoming raspy because of the tears.

I could feel them, too.

Eden… my best friend. The boy I love almost as much as I loved Tyr.

To this day, I can still feel Eden’s lips on my own. Our tongues dancing lustfully. Me in his lap, clutching the back of his neck to keep him close.

We never did anything sexual, but I wouldn’t have minded. Eden was very desirable, but he didn’t know how much his slender hips affected me.

His only care was the teacher, Z. Zacchuski.

It… hurt… to know that I would never love again. Maybe… maybe that’s why I starved myself.

I wanted to die.

Of course, I could’ve taken pills and alcohol. Or cut my wrists. Or jumped.

But those things weren’t me.

I’ve always been a masochist. Starving myself was the most painful way to go. My body slowly shutting down, organ by organ. My friends and family crying over my casket.

“Please, Beau… don’t leave.”

‘I wish it didn’t have to be this way… Good-bye, Eden… I’ll see you in the next life…’

THEND.

Happy Birthday, Zeph!!

I hope you liked this. I really wanted to do a story from Beau’s POV, since he was so… COOL!! I hope you don’t mind, dear. :D Teehee, I kinda wore my hair like Beau’s today, too. In your honor!! (hearts)

On a rather unrelated note (no pun intended… here in a minute XD), the second Death Note (get it now??) movie will be out either on Oct. 13 or Nov. 3. I’m really hoping it’s November 3 because that’s Greg's birthday!! (giggles) I LOVE that manga. BTW, I have a fanfic if anyone wants me to e-mail it to them. If they’re interested. D

Well, thanks for reading and please review. It’s Zephyr’s birthday, so give her some love!! (hearts)