A/N: So before you start in on this, you should know that it's mostly a rant. Just a warning. Oh, and sorry about the lack of organization.

I'll be the second to admit that I tend to be overly critical of my work, but I don't think that I'm that far from the base. I have an amazing friend who is a bloody brilliant writer and she’s much better than me. She adamantly denies this fact, but it is quite clear to anyone who has ever read anything of hers that she's a wonderful writer on many levels. I'll show her my work and most of it's not very good. There are a couple things that I'm proud of (see "Untitled"), but most of it's gibberish. I post it on here and show it to people in hopes that someone will get the better of me. My friend tells me that it's good or whatever and the reviews I get say that it's good, but if you look I average about 1.2 reviews per poem or short story. I don't think my friend understands that if no one tells me that it's decent than why should I think otherwise?

And to be completely contradictory, why should it matter what people say? If I think it sucks, why can't it? I said the other day, "I hate reading my poetry out loud b/c they always sound like shit, not that matters it's crap anyway." And I was told "you're the only one who thinks that." The only one out of like 5 people. Basically one-fifth or 20 of the people who read it thought it sucked. And that's if no one lied to me. So forgive me if I don't think that my stuff's not very good. I don't have fan club that reads my stuff. I barely have repeat reviewers. If I want a review for some stuff I have to specifically ask people for it. I can't just post it and hope people read it. It doesn't work like that for me. I'm lucky to get my 1.2 reviews per story.