Dealing

I’m always in pain whether it’s physical or emotional

And I can’t stand these feeling anymore

One minute I’m fine, smiling and happy

The next I’m depressed, frowning and crying

How can it change so fast?

How do I always manage to deal?

One day I wno’t be able to

One day the ones I care about won’t be there

And I won’t be able to manage

I’ll need them and I won’t be able to talk with them

Why does it have to happen that way?

Why can’t there always be someone there?

I won’t be able to deal and then it’ll be too late

And I won’t be there anymore

I hope that day never comes

But how can it not?

No one’s ever always been there for me

Why would then be any different?

Why would I always have someone

When I can’t always be there for everyone else...?