Forever Blaming

Never let them kn ow how you feel

Because it hurts soo much

This pain that’s always there

Hating myself more and more every day

How can I deal when I feel no one understand

Feel that it doesn’t matter but wanting it to stop

Not knowing how to change myself

Not knowing any other way to live

Wanting to end it before it’s too late

Before you say something else that’s wrong

Blaming yourself for everything

For saying half the things I say

For how I make myself feel like shit

And won’t listen when he tries to help

I wish I could take his word and stop

Stop blaming myself for everything whether big or small

But I can’t because I don’t know how

I just want to die and rid the world of my idiocy

But then I don’t because I don’t want to loose them

All of my friends and my boyfriend

I love them all so much

I don’t know what I’d do without them

I need to stop doing this before it’s too late

Too bad I don’t know how and don’t think I can...