Vile Taste

Thinking of you with her

Leaves me feeling sick

When did these feelings appear?

I don’t know but I hate it.

I should be happy for you both

You are my friends.

But I can’t forget the way it felt

To be in your arms and safe.

I hate myself for feeling like this

Dependency and weakness

I appear happy for you

But the tears coming after prove me untrue.

I despise the selfishness

The desire to have you as my own.

Worst of all is this,

I don’t think you can face me either.