am i allowed

to break my own heart

when this pain is unbearable?

am i allowed to scream

when tears can no longer flow?

love left me in the midst

of empty words and broken promises,

stripping me of all i have

only to leave me

broken and alone.

may i laugh at my stupidity

for believing that fabricated memories

can turn into hapiness

and even love?

may i slice the flesh

that i wish to punish for leading

me into your arms?

may i become an infinite nonitity?

for nothing more is me

as love led me to this place

of faded dreams

and shattered hearts.

may i forget those words

that made my heart believe

it could love once more?

may i forget you and your smiling face

so i wont break?

may i write my last words upon this page?

may i die?

October 5,2006

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A/N:Sorry for no updates in a has been killer TwT I will post more soon. -