Lost

I must find you. My red heart is breaking;
the only pressure’s from within.
I am empty.
I don’t want to live without you.
My only lifeline is Them.
They keep me from the chasm of death.
They give me hope.
But still, They are too distant.
They keep me sane.
They keep the darkness from creeping.
But still, the darkness is there.
Always watching. Always waiting.
Waiting for me to fail.
Waiting for hope to lift its wings from my back and fly away.

I cannot live without you beside me.
I am not whole without you.
I cannot walk forward, They won’t let me turn back.
So the darkness remains.

My dreams are nothing but ash.
My life is no longer dear to me.
I am distant, even from myself.
I cannot get off my knees.
I am bound, with no key but you.
My blood is frost.
It runs cold from the warmth of the sun.

Hope dies a little each time I see humans rushing like tiny ants;
Mindless creatures of the earth they themselves have created.
The blackness of my lonely heart grows, day by day.
I will be lost;
I am lost.
I stand still in a world that ever spins.

Human clocks tell time, then grows and engulfs them
In the darkness of society.
Time does not touch me.
It cannot reach me where I’ve hidden.

I simply watch as the years go by.
People die, but I don’t care.
You are the only one that matters.
The lights are going out.
Soon, I will lose hope of ever knowing the peace that is you.

I hide in chaos.
No one sees me but Them.
I would no longer live, but for Them.
Where are you now?
I can’t watch a sunset anymore.
The beauty dies, and only reflects
The dying light within.
Where do I go from here?
I am useless now. Helpless.
Nothing holds me anymore.
Imagination has died.
Only you can help me rise from the ashes.
My life is no longer my own. It is Theirs.
Pain is an old friend to me now.
Only Pain can find me.
Only Pain sees what I've become.
They don't really know me.
When will you come?
This earth holds nothing more for me.
I need nothing but you.
The darkness is almost louder than the hope and will to survive.
No one can compare to you.
Humans are pathetic beings with no sense of love.
My half-soul knows you are my only hope.
My only love.
You will ever be.

I am so cold.
The flames surround me, but never touch.
I am dying.
You are my survival.
Help me before it is too late;
Before the frost consumes my burning heart.
Save me before I am no longer living.
Help me feel the fire.
I don't want to be forgotten;
Among the flames, yet entombed in ice.
I want you. I need you.
Only you can melt the ice that blackens my heart.
I must find you.