Alisa III

I'm sorry love but I can't stop shedding tears

I've just returned from washing my face, my hand are slightly burned

I ran them under the hot water and it felt refreshing

Hotter than healthy actually, the pain was something new

Pierced my hands and took the sorrow from them

If only I could douse my heart in scalding water

It might distract me from from the emotions

This was so much different, such a simple act

I'm not used to physical agony as much, and it was a fresh feeling

Too often am I struck on the inside, my heart's been sutured one too many times

It was nice to feel tangible pain for once...reminded me of what I'm missing

I'm missing you

I'll never feel your kiss, feel your embrace, feel your touch

I had hoped that much at least, but it was cut short

I was always hoping that one day I would physically feel you there

But now we both know that can't happen

That's why I keep this physical pain so close to my heart now

That few seconds of burning can't be taken away from me

Unlike you...

No one can take away this self inflicted sensation

Slight, but important nonetheless

And don't worry when I tell you this, it's not as you think

I'm not one for self harm

It's only refreshing to feel this pain once in a while

Remind me of what we could have had, of what we should have had

May God keep you happy throughout your life

For I only have our memories and this burning pain