I'll lie to you and make you hate me
To the point that
things
won't
be the same

I'll drown myself in a sea
full of shame
sorrow
and hate
I'll never get to explain fully how I feel
I'm just too afraid
of all the things I fear
and dreadfully hate
If only you could understand how it's so hard
To hide the things I don't
want to say
admit
or hear
All the imperfections

It's just so hard to see your words
come true
and make me love everything I thought
I should hate
about myself
I love you to a point
it just seems
all wrong to be happy