You've Had Everyone On Your Arm But Me

I don't like this feeling
That I'm a backup plan..
The girl you call up when things go wrong,
And you need someone to cry to, oh no.

I don't like feeling ignored
Time and time again.
You only want to talk when it's convenient,
And it's always about you.

I just can't handle being the one,
The friend who you go to..
I can't handle being the one you never notice.

When I hold your hand and say
"It'll be okay,"
I want to tell you it could be better with me..
You could get better with me.

But I guess it's not my place to meddle,
Not my place to say what I feel,
Even though this is driving me crazy,
And I can't believe myself.

I feel so pathetic, waiting for your calls,
Then hanging up unsatisfied.
Yeah, I'm living such a lie..

I'd like to kiss you just once
When you're looking into my eyes and crying.

When I wipe your tears away I'm silently willing you
To look at me the way I look at you..

And I want to tell you that you should never cry again,
But we're forever stuck in this silence.
My being here serves no purpose,
And I feel so alone.

The courage never comes
For me to say what I really mean.
I just nod and smile when you talk to me,
But underneath that fake smile...

I'm wondering, why not me?