as cliche as the following words all might sound

girl, you were the sun my entire world orbit around

you were the only jewel in my shit-cast crown

and when you'd cry baby, man i hated the sound

watching the changes in your face as you'd break down

killed me, and in a eyeful of your tears, i could've drowned

one day, drown i did, but the tears were all my own

and after i was all cried out i slowly turned to stone

fuckin' destroyed everything associated with you i owned

shut away from everything, i just wanted to be left alone

because i couldn't feel anything even when i wanted to

i realized it was because my feelings had died with you

that realization triggered memories of nights in my room

before i ever knew what it hurt like to be missing you

oh baby, i wish i could say i tried

but baby, all i can say now is goodbye

you'd changed my life in ways i could never describe

but even you couldn't stop me from wanting to get high

instead i turned you onto it and poisoned your mind

i thought your heart would always be stronger than mine

perhaps i should've fought harder to keep you alive

and i should never have let you snort that last line

but i never thought we did enough for one of us to die

you told me you were sleepy, i thought you were lyin'

who sleeps on coke? you were playing, you were fine

it was all in fun, i thought you had a handle on it

until your chest looked still and i put my hand on it

and closed my eyes because i couldn't pull it away

"god, please oh please let me be crazy, let her be ok"

but you weren't, your life ended and mine changed that day...

and with my love gone now, all i have left is cocaine...

oh baby, i wish i could say i tried

but baby, all i can say now is goodbye