I swear I’ll never cry again,
When I see the memories that I cherish,
I swear I’ll never wish to be little,
To avoid all the pain of your overlooking me.
I swore to myself I’d never hope to god
you’d make me another get better card.
I would die from the grief.
I swear I’d never remember the times
You forced me into playing with you,
Because it only makes me bitter.

Why did you leave me alone?
Just because we’re four years apart,
Doesn’t mean you have any right to snub me,
Don’t treat me like I’m not here,
Because one day I won’t be.
You’ll be sorry, you’ll be sorry.
I swear I’ll make it true.
Sisterhood is a team effort,
What the hell happened to you?

What do you think you know about me?
How much do you care?
Why can’t you ever talk to me?!
Why can’t you act like I’m there?
You pretend to know so much about me,
But how much is true?
Why don’t you love me anymore, Joanna?
God fucking damn it, what’d I do?

You’re not doing your part anymore,
I don’t know how to make you understand,
I’m falling apart at the seams,
I don’t know where to start.
This isn’t mom’s fault,
Definitely not dad’s either,
It’s just yours and mine...
I tell myself day in and day out,
That “this will be the day”
But every time I even try,
You leave. You drive away.

(Suddenly you had grown up and left me behind.
And I was alone.)

I sit at home alone, in my room
And cry day after day,
Reminiscing about the younger girl.
She used to want to play.
She used to treat me better than you.
She used to hug and love me.
She used to give me makeovers.
She used to dance and live.
But now that girl is dead to me,
And I don’t know where she’s gone.
I wish you’d just come back to us.
Stop pushing us away..
We won’t be here forever.
One day you might wake up all alone.

I can’t put into any other words
How much my heartaches,
For the younger girl who used to make us laugh.
I remember her well, but she’s locked away.
I miss the girl who used to smile.
I miss the girl who used to live.
Tell me, why’d you kill her?
Why did you let her wither away?
Why did you drift away from me?
Why don’t you love me anymore?
Why won’t you save me?

I can’t lie to myself forever.
Tell myself that I hate you.
It’s just a ruse to fool myself,
Because it’s not true.
I don’t hate you, even thought I desperately tell myself it’s true.
No matter how much I lie to myself,
The facts stand-

I love you.
I miss you.
I want you back.

Stop running away with people who don’t share your blood.
Stop running away with people who don’t know you like we do.
Stop running away with people who don’t love you like we do.
Stop running away with people who don’t miss you as much as we do.

I promised myself I wouldn’t cry,
But these are no normal tears.
These are tears of remorse,
Tears of fear.
I know you don’t really care.
If you’ve read this, you probably hate me,
You probably don’t even know.
How much I need you in my life right now,
How much I want to share.
But the truth, the sad, horrible truth is…

You.
Just.
Don’t.
Care.