maybe we're better off
but i sure feel pretty terrible.
and i always start to feel helpless
around the most awkward times.
it felt so so so so entirely right.
but again, like always, i'm wrong.
i'm done feeling as if
i can't be without that stupid, foolish feeling
that i got confused for something else.
and i hate that i got so lost.
no one will even look at me.
cause i'm in general left of center...
and not all that pretty.
i've just reached an all time low.

this is lonely.
this is lonely at it's complete peak.

i may want you back but i'll be damned if i admit that.
i don't think you'd ever even accept that.
i may miss your kiss but you don't need to know that
it's not as if you're just going to come back.

and yeah, there will be others,
but right now they're not worth my time.
and i can't ever change anything
and i don't want to call anyone else mine.
i thought i was so so so goddamn fucking tall.
turns out i've become quite the opposite.
now that i've fallen i kind of see clearly.
( you were the only one i ever held dearly )
i regret it, all of it, wholeheartedly, entirely.
there's nothing i can look back on
what makes me sad NOW used to make me happy.
i've just come to terms with the fact i'm not grown.

this is lonely.
this is lonely and feeling weak.

i may want you back but i'll be damned if i admit that.
i don't think you'd ever even accept that.
i may miss your kiss but you don't need to know that
it's not as if you're just going to come back.

never again will i fool myself into thinking that i'm in love.
never again will i ever pretend that you were ever the one.
i won't hold your hand and no you can't kiss me
(but you never made the first move anyway.)
i can't look at you, do you even miss me?
funny how nine months can fade in two days.