trapped behind the shadows

of all the mistakes i've made

how can someone with nothing to lose

always be so afraid?

all the time,

always blind

eyes shut tight so willingly.

in bed with the demons that are slowly,

oh so slowly killing me.

so mindlessly, selfishly self-destructive

but i must love it,

this... this sad comfort in my defeats,

always knowing i should rise above it.

but i stay in my numb retreat

because there's nothing here to save.

even if i wasn't so scared,

there's just nothing left here to save...