i was fine before you came

godammit i was fine

but once again you came and went

and took with you things once mine

and left me with a sadness

a sadness carrying your name

a sadness i'd long forgot

in the days before you came

a thousand times we've walked this line

and a thousand times we fell

a thousand times we've told these lies

and drank from this poison well

that's why every kiss lately

had a filthy after-taste

but like the addict i am

i stilll enjoyed your venomous embrace

you have what you came for now

so take it with my hate

it stands no more for what it did

so take it and it's taint

how could my biggest love

be my darkest of mistakes?

every time i think hatefully

of you, again my heart breaks

by now though i know you know

that i'm quite numb to it

but behind the safety of my fury

it still does sting just a little bit

it's sad to think your significance

over time will surely fade

and a single certainty is clear

through the vindictive moves we made

i HAVE always silently hated you

with forgiveness out of reach

keeping you in the shadows of

the dumb, naive trust you breached

i guess you're right, i never free

you from the shackles of your guilt

never to be satisfied until

you taste the pain you've delt

but go ahead with your crazy rant

about how this is on my head

for letting you slip away

when it was you who left me for dead

and every time i nursed myself

back to health, you came

back for one more selfish run

at our twisted little game

so validate your fucked up claims

and keep the memories you stole

leave me feeling inside like your sex

just an empty, dirty hole

i hate you and want you to know

how much i fucking do

i wish i felt nothing at all

i'm so sick of being sick of you

so take your letters and

and get the fuck out of my head

it may not all be your fault

but i think you've made your bed...

i hate you

i don't like you

i love you