Written Monday, October 30, 2006

“Give Up”

This is my despair

in a color coated box

This voice in my head screams

The eyes water

so the tears may fall

I keep my mouth shut,

my lips will not move

my mind aches like a sharp knife

my heart will not open

I shake

This world feels so cruel

I cry, Why me? Why me?

Why does this person have to be me?

Everyone laughs at me

They do not know my pain

They stare

They whisper

Things will never be okay

I want to give up

I want to stop the knocking in brain;

I want to forget everything

So please, please, please,

please let myself go

let me wither and die

watching the leaves of a flower turn to ash

and feel nothing

The sea

The sky

The ocean

Please let me die