Should I Thank You for Disaster?

(and I shiver in the dark
black
...ness
of the night)
tears dripping
silently down my face
rolling off my lush red lips
that are
curled into a heartbroken
smile
(my face pale as death)
and I don’t blame you
for words I don’t know
but I blame you for the
regret
of never trying to know
(like life was too short
and I wasted it on you)
your eyes whisper secrets of
the sky to me
crying to me
the acid spiked tears flowing
onto the palms of my hand
where I catch them
and drip them into my eyes
take a lighter to them
so they sparkle with the
luminosity of the moon
there’s no better pain
than you