The leaves are falling outside my window, falling to their strange little deaths in flurries of red and gold each time the wind blows so cold, its coming soon the frost and snow and winter sky at the edge of the world, above the raging seas where waves crash upon the rocks and gulls cry their mournful song overhead in their home of grey sky.

Somewhere, there’s an everlasting canvas of blue and the clouds chase each other in the wind that whispers through the grass and wildflowers you put in my hands and hair, distract me while you rip my heart out.

Feels, like faded photos, words that fade in my diary, blurred by the tears you don’t see because there’s just no time I need it but I don’t want it makes our days fly like the clouds overhead ever changing never stopping my heart each time you look at me.

Don’t leave me, hold my hands, my heart, here I’m giving it to you don’t crush it but you will as I clasp your hand in mine, you’re all I live for but you kill me, hands around my throat, maybe they’re my own, please help me I can’t breathe, I don’t want to, I might wake up beside you there’s no air just darkness and rain outside the clouds are black like this heart is mine to give yours to keep me loving you do you feel the same because I always will no matter what you do or how you hurt me I’ll always be yours, a slave to freedom, set me free but I won’t run.

Angels are dying at your feet, their wings are torn you ripped them you bastard but how can I hate you? All I want and need and never want to be, the stuff dreams and nightmares are made of, which one are you?

I’m so confused, these words are all I have you’ve taken everything else but I gave it all in the first place I don’t mind, just hurt me, it’s all you ever do and all I ever want because that’s the only reason why you’re here isn’t it the only thing you want from me the blood the tears the screams I don’t mind,

I love you

but I’ve said that already, you just don’t hear me or maybe you don’t want to feel afraid of this, its just me and shadows and no one else I’ll never tell I swear they won’t believe me anyway.

Don’t make me go, I’d rather bleed but I am, scarlet dreams disappear into the ground, straight to hell or is it heaven, which one is it now, tell me anything and I’ll believe the lies because
Love
Is
For
Fools.