Author: thesewords PM
Essay type poetry. What it feels like when passion and love is supressed. I'd love some feedback!Rated: Fiction K - English - Romance/Angst - Chapters: 2 - Words: 677 - Reviews: 3 - Favs: 1 - Updated: 11-06-06 - Published: 11-02-06 - id: 2270701
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Maybe I should have told you. I've considered this so many times, but, this is different. This time I'm locking you deep in my heart and never opening it again. This time you'll hear it. This time you'll hear what I have to say, your best friend..the girl you trust with everything. It's simple.
I adore you.
Everything about you is perfect. I adored you. I do, adore you, but tonight that has to end.
When I met you, you stood out. You seemed strong, determined. I was drawn to you. Something about you made me need your attention. I wanted you to love me. And you do. But not like this. Not like I do.
We fought. We glared. We ignored. But there was something about you.
Somehow brief conversations, and friendly smiles planted a seed between us. Slowly, we actually became friends. One night we spoke for hours and something between us bloomed into the deepest friendship that I have ever known. And tonight you'll understand.
Tonight I'll understand.
It wasn't until years after we met that I just went months without seeing you. It didn't phase me, we were friends. Nothing more. But there was something about you. Something held on to you, and I didn't even know it. After all that time, I went to see you. I wasn't excited, my heart wasn't pounding, we were friends. Nothing more.
But in a glance, my eyes caught you. They took you in and drank you up. I hadn't even realised how my heart had suffered without you. The mask of friendship had me completely fooled. Your dark brown hair and clear blue eyes caught me by surprise. You were so beautiful..I never noticed. Maybe I had but I ignored it. A thought inside me wispered that maybe I did, indeed, love you. No. You were just a friend. Nothing more.
Months dragged on and my eyes never left you. You were so perfect. You are so perfect. The way you smiled, the way you walked, the way you spoke. Perfection. I loved you and didn't even know it. I wanted you, and didn't even know it. And more importantly, I need you, and I didn't even know it.
And so, again, time went. I believed you'd always be here. You always have been. With your long lean arms to hold me, your playful smile to comfort me. I believed you'd always be around. You always have been. Why would that change. Suddenly.
There was her.
Out of nowhere, there was her.
Young, and beautiful..there was her. You were so smitten, so taken. It hurt me. For once I realized I was holding on and couldn't let go. If only there were words to describe the emotions I felt. It was taking everything I saw in the future and snapping it in half. It hurt.
I tried to move on. I tried to look past her, and only to you. But I can't. It's been months darling, and I can't. In the midst of these feelings, I realised who you were. You were everything. Not just a friend, everything. I loved you, and I knew it. I wanted you, I knew it. I needed you, and painfully, I knew it. But it's too late. She's here. She has you. She has you and your blue eyes, your lean arms. You're so beautiful, and you're hers. Hers.
So tonight, I'm telling you. Tonight these feelings are suffocated. Tonight my heart will melt away this pain, and freeze up. It all hurts too much, you're everything. I won't, I can't love if it's not you. There's just something about you that keeps me holding on. My hand is broken, and it's bleeding, but for you I'm holding on. I love you. I adore you.
And tonight, everything ends.