Am I selfish?

I think that's what I am.

I want nothing from you

Yet, I want everything from you

You can't give me anything

Not your heart

And I understand

I give excuses

I'm not pretty enough

I'm not strong enough

I'm not dumb enough

I'm not girly enough

And I keep finding ways to try and make you

Force you

I'm the lowest of low

And after a few months I'll learn that

You weren't that special

I'm too caught up

But now you're lucky

You didn't have to care

And you didn't

You don't know

You don't feel it

And I'm stuck making you a number

A statistic

You’re just one of many who said no

But that's okay

I'm too selfish

Now I truly know