I’ve Turned Into

I’ve turned into the thing I’ve always hated

The people I always complain about

The people who dislike and make fun of me

I’ve turned into the thing I swore to never be

The people who insult and hurt me

The people who don’t care who they cause pain to

I’ve turned into the thing I really wish I wasn’t

The people I really don’t like

I’ve hurt my friends and possibly my family

I’ve turned into the thing that says one thing they didn’t mean

Because of someone else telling them something

They didn’t think want to believe, but felt might true

I’ve turned on my best friends,

Because of what other friends have said to me

Now I realize that what they said was out of spite or jealousy,

I’m really not sure why they said it

But I may have lost my closest friends,

For saying something I didn’t mean,

But I just said out anger, pain, and possible jealousy

And now I hate myself because

I’ve turned into something I didn’t want to be

And I hope they can forgive me

I just have to find a way to apologize and explain the reasons behind my words,

And speak to the ones who lied to me

Because I can’t lose this friend

They’re one the closest ones I have

And maybe I can reverse

What it is

I’ve turned into.