So,
today
today I spoke.

Today I let the blame
fall free from my lips
tumbling downward
like stars
like dust
like heaven and hell
all wrought together.
I spoke of my blame today.

today I told a truth

Today I told a lie
though they'd never know it
I tainted my pure-as-gold confession
today
with a lie
or two
I lose track of them.
they drip
they leak
like poison
like water
from my lips.

today I broke a heart

Today I told a story
made a myth
or perhaps a legend
spill from my mouth
seep from my pores
told the story until there was nothing left
let it take over my brain
like a snake around its prey
like a drug inside the body
I let it control me
and when it was done
I felt so much better

today I killed a man
Yesterday I was silent
Tomorrow will be the same

Today I told a truth
let fly a hollow sentence
constructed with words that
I found in the thesaurus
they served my purpose
I got my points across
quite clearly
made amends and closures
and tomorrow my lips will
re-stitch themselves
silent.

yesterday I was a silent observer
now that I've spoken words again
my vision of people will forever be tainted
tomorrow I will heal myself
re-stitch myself
sew up my wounds
and call it even

So,
today
today I said nothing
today I did nothing
today

Today, I killed myself.

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AN: bit of a follow up to blame but it’s not necessary for you to read it.