You haunt me everyday

Sleeping and waking,

I just can’t ignore you.

Six in the morning…

First thought will always be

“Will you look at me today?”

Seven a.m…

You’re here, I watch you come in…

With not a glance in my direction

Eight to three…

You’re three doors along from me…

Five walls separate us physically…

And an abyss of emotion…

How many times have I waited outside your room?

Waited inside it in hopes of seeing you?

Too many to count.

But how many words have you ever spoken to me?

How many times have I crossed your mind?

Two, at best.

Five to eleven…

The name in my mind is yours

The initials scrawled everywhere are yours

The surname added in jest is yours too

My personality mirrors yours

That’s the way I want it

Same music, same friends

Throughout the night

You taunt me in my dreams.

A pleasant thought first, yet as the night progresses

My dreams show me the truth:

“I’ll never want you!”

You’ve said it in dreams,

And shown me in reality.

When will I face it?

You’ll never be mine…. But how I wish you were…

Author’s Note: A mess of a poem, I know, but it’s just something I had to write. All that’s left now is to accept it and move on… sighs and thinks of you-know-who….