The Bitter Life

“First Movement”

Ganj’ smoke filled the room
It’s so hard to breathe
It’s so hard to sleep
It gets to hard to think

We’re to fucking lazy to get up
I’m too fucking tired to get a drink
I’m too fucking sick to smoke a cig

But I’m awake enough to light a roach
I’m awake enough to take another toke

“Killing Field”

Could it stab you anymore?
Could it stab you any harder?
Can it inhale you?
Will it spit you back out?

Can it kill you?
Burn away

Will it hurt you?
Get stoned all day

“Jo—e—y”

Pick me, Pick me
Another call is waiting
They said, they said
Everyone’s complaining

Pick me, Pick me
Sometimes we should quit straining
She said, she said
Mao is gay

Die, Die, Die with me
Urk…

Do this, do that now
You could be my hero
Ring me, ring me now
Everyone is gay

Hey
Die, Die, die with me!
Die, Die, Die with me!
Die, Die, Die with me!

Hit me, hit me, yeah
Another long lost signal
Hit this, hit that
You don’t have to stay

Pick me, Pick me
Everyone is hollow
Kiss me, Kiss me
Why did you step on me?

Die, Die, Die
Die with me
Die, Die, Die
Die with me
Die, Die, Die
Die for me
Yeah…

“Waste”

Load up on drugs
With your friends
It’s fun to smoke and pretend

Imagine another lyric
It’s in your mind.
What a waste

“Fuckin-aye right?”

Nobody untie me
I could stay in here without you
Ask me if I’m tired
I could stay in here for a few

Fuckin-aye right?
Let’s talk about someone else
Talking about her makes me swell
Nothing really bothers her
She just hates to love herself
I’m gonna move away from here
Scratched inside, I don’t have to hide
I knew it would come to this

Don’t try to persuade me
There’s nothing I ask from you
Can you believe I’ve come to this?
I don’t need any breathing room

“You make me sick”
or Bitter Life
or Bitter Days
Decide, I don’t like either…

She’s only been gone
She’s not alone
She’s already growing up
I’m bored

It hurts when you have to impress your friends
Then you start, you’re not you
You make me sick,
You make me sick sometimes

She’s only been gone five days
Even though it feels like it’s been forever

Somebody else needs to bring up a word
It has to get her off my mind,
Get her off my mind

She’s only fourteen
But I haven’t been out in forever
You Fucker

I wish I had more, more um… Weed
I need something to get the pressure off my
My…um… My um… head…
Rain’s gonna pissed…

It’s like I’m just a stupid G.I.T…
A GIT, a stupid git… Git…
Gays in… trouble… No… uh…

I’m too stoned for this….

YEAH!!!

What about, Guys in… in… town!
Or GNWC, geeks with no chicks
Like Mao… Or is that GWNC?
Fuck… This is a waste of time…

One more blunt? Ok.
Move on…

YEAH!!!

It’s like my whole mind has been washed away
As if gallons of THC flowed through my mind
And then Cliff Burton came along with his guitar
And… He played a solo that rhymed with mind…

Stars…

She’s only been gone five days
Though it feels like I haven’t even had her in forever
And then it starts to get crazy
Where do you put it?

In the closet?
In the garden?
In the closet? NO…
In my ass
Up your ass…
Or Mao’s ass…
Fuck…

She’s only been gone five days
Although I’ve been stoned since forever

Someone help her
Helter Skelter
Yeah

She’s only been sober for two months
And I haven’t smoked a blunt in minutes

I wish I had more chances
More opportunity… no…
I wish I could go back five days
I’d get this settled…

Then I’d get stoned

We could have so much more fun,
More creative flow
We could be a GIT…
Or have one….

Come on Alex, think of one,

Ganja in… Tijuana

That works

Ganja in Tijuana… This is a joke
This isn’t poetry!

I wish this wasn’t a free verse
This poem feels like… Angst…
Angst…
Angst…
Ass…

She’s only been gone five days
And I’ve been so stoned
Um… Next…
We gotta sober up for the finale

“Don’t have to mind”

Drift from mood to mood
Can’t just play it cool
Strangers here again
We need another plan

Aye, here’s the world
Come as all, come as one
We take hits for fun
I don’t mind where it’s been
No, I don’t mind where it’s been
Eh, here’s the world
You can come to work,
You can come for fun
I don’t care where it’s been
No, I don’t care where it’s been anyways

We can smoke some more
Pass out on the floor
Fools with some excuse
We can smoke to get loose

Eh, here’s the world
Come as one, come as all
And here’s the one
She can burn one fat, burn one small
I don’t mind where it’s been
No, I don’t mind where it’s been
She’s the one who like all our little songs
Sometimes she likes to sing along
And she likes to shoot for fun
She don’t mind what it means
No, I don’t care where it’s been anymore

“Creep”

You wait in my brain
You wait in my veins
You’re in my head
You’re in my eyes—

As a friend
As my friend
You’re my old enemy

Enemy… yeah…
Enemy…huh?
Enemy… yeah…

Come up the butt
Of a slut
You don’t care where she’s been
No…

Come doused in bud
Wreaking of bleach
Just as I wanted you to be

As a friend
As my friend
You’re my old enemy

Enemy… yeah…
Enemy… yeah…
Enemy…

You’re my enemy.
But I like you anyways

“Strike me down”

Strike me down
Rip me open
Eat away
I don’t care, it’s ok.

Eat my guts
Eat my brain
You’re ‘bout damn near fucking… fuck… insane!
Wait? What? No…

This sucks, I’m going home
We need a catchy line

“Useless”

Outward away from things
Summer time bringin' sin
falling into my addictions
Stuck inside a hole again

Nowhere to run to
Sinnin' addictions break my life apart
I got nothing to hope for
Nobody counts on me--it's a bad start

I try to keep movin'
I'm too tired and
I've lost myself
I've got nobody to blame
There's no hope for me right now
Will things ever be the same?

I feel so useless
I'm startin' to go numb
I feel so lonely
I blew it all and now I'm done

I'm a reject in my misery
I'm not sure where I should go
I've lost my will to move
I just have to take to take it slow

I can't stand bein' me no more…