Lost it All Because of Him

I lost it all that day

My story I shall tell

Let’s start at day one

The beginning of my Hell

I was called out of class one day

I was only 13

I never expected

The horror that would be

I walked into the office

Silent through winding halls

A woman told me on the way

And I began to fall

The lady told me everything

What that man had done

My father killed my mother and

He did it with a gun

At first it was denial

This could never be

But reality began to seep in when

They shut the door behind me

I found my little brother

And we began to cry

I wiped his tears, he was only 9

Why did she have to die?

My daddy is a murderer

To the jail we went

There was no need to visit the hospital

Mom’s life had been spent

When we reached his cell

My dad tried to explain

His drunken rage had killed mom

And he could share our pain

But this was not my daddy

Who taught me to ride a bike

Before me was a stone-cold killer

He found his victim; only to strike

Before I only felt emptiness

A gaping hole where mom had been

But then the sorrow was released

As anger settled in

I told him he should get death

All the blood that he had spilt

The hurt he caused his own flesh and blood

He should die with all his guilt

He broke at my words He broke down at my words

I had spit venom in his eye Like pumping venom to his heart

He killed my mom; I walked away He killed my mom; I walked away

And left him there to dieI had done my part

At the trial a week later

He tried to lie again

The truth was he hadn’t been drunk

I alone could see it then

I left the room storming with anger

As I earn people’s stares

Some of them hold pity

But more of them don’t care

Two weeks later, the trial ends

My dad died in his closed cell

I cry at school and can’t sleep at night

Was he sorry? I could never tell

But my dad did not die

Because of what the jury did decide

Jail officers found his body

It was cold suicide

Though it sort of gives me peace

I can’t ignore the past

My souls become colder now

I’ve had to grow up fast

I’m living life day-to-day

I’m living here for me

But I can never forget

I’m two parents short of a family