You don't see me

so don't nod.

You don't know me

so don't lie.

You don't hear me

so don't smile.

If you knew what I am

you would leave me right here.

I can't think and I can't breathe

there Is nothing I can do.

The others are perfect

How hard that must be!

Cause they have to

make up for me.

If I were perfect,
would you love me then?

If I were pretty, would you smile at me?

If I were smart,
would you praise me?

If you saw me,
could you accept me?

You see what you feel like seeing.

You turn your head at the right moments.

Just so that you can say,
"It's all in your head."

I am in the shadow of my sisters.

Because they are better and I am worse.

So what will I do?
I have no existence.

IT'S YOURS.

Stop lying to me.
I hate the lies.

Stop playing games.
Just say it.

Stop turning away

You need to see.

And don't lie this time.
Just say it.

Just tell me what you know and I know.

I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH.

It's okay.
I live by these words.

Yell, scream, shout.
Just don't leave.

Stop just leaving.
You wonder why I'm scared.

Scared that you won't come back this time.

I was worried. Does that count?

Am I good enough when I cry?

Am I good enough when I cut angry red scars?

Am I good enough when I scream from pain?

AM I GOOD ENOUGH YET?

when?
when is enough?

when do I stop crying?
When do I take a deep breath?

when do I wake up?
Mommy, Daddy?

Do you love me?
Why aren't I good enough?

I cut myself.
Am I good enough yet?

I'm bleeding?
How about now?

When, Mommy?
When am I perfect?

I'm crying.
Hows about now, Mom?

WHEN!?!?

Will I ever be good enough?

Or am I doomed to bleed to death?

AM I GOOD ENOUGH YET?
AM I GOOD ENOUGH YET!?