The Unveiling

You win; I’m miserable.

Every emotion churning in my stomach has curdled,

Like poison to my spiritual vessel, I have been paralyzed.

For the first time in months, I felt something other than longing and sorrow,

But by you, my sadness and despair have never been fully empathized.

You claim that it’s the same for me, and that I do not truly care;

Throw your blinders aside to realize,

You’re seeing something that isn’t truly there.

In fact, I bet that you walk around with not one thought of me in mind.

Yet you sap every feeling of happiness from me, when it’s finally peace I find.

We’re coated in layers of shiny, thick armor;

Reflections of lights and thoughts are beamed right back to deceive our piercing eyes.

So with this in mind, I strip myself of all that’s protecting me:

I remove my boots which have allowed me to step on those who’ve stepped on me.

I discard my gloves which have enabled me to ignore the impact of my own hurtful touch.

I cast away my body armor which encloses me in myself, so I can truly be set free.

I throw my helmet to the ground, although it sheltered me so much.

With my face now revealed and emotions no longer concealed,

The final thing I rid myself of, is my shield.

No long can I take the pain and reflect it to anyone else,

Nor can I shield my heart of all that comes its way.

I feel each tiny needle, piercing through my flesh

It doesn’t matter if I bleed myself dry; this is how I am going to stay.

So figuratively I stand naked before you, with all truths out to see

You honestly are the only one, who can fuck with my integrity.

Not because of swiftness or cunnings, but due to lessons learned.

You taught me what it was to love, and in my heart forever be it burned.