Irreversible

I've been writing out all my thoughts

yet the pages are blank

because my mind is a hundred pages back

With every stroke, another regret

written in ink that mirrors my heart

I want my friends back again

I want be loved like back then

but everything is irreversable

I feel like I've been wishing on stars

and every last one's been dead

cause only one thing

has came through my head

Why?

why did I say that,

why didn't I do that

Why am I so alone now?

Is all irreversable?

do I have a way out

will I actually beable to fix this

will I ever be here again?