What is the value of life?

I’ve looked for an answer,

but didn’t find it in my life.

I knew the answer

But couldn’t put it into practice

No matter how hard I tried.

Human life isn’t worthless

But mine was

Every time I raised my hopes,

Something dashed them.

Every time I thought I was good

Someone better than me appeared.

Every time I was enjoying myself

Something happened to ruin the mood.

Every time I thought life was good

Something happened to show me it wasn’t.

Don’t grieve, for my life was not in vain.

I lived through experiences you didn’t.

I have put up with persistent, invasive questioning

I have put up with constant, unwanted patronization

I have put up with feelings of guilt as you watched me eat

I have put up with the presence of others when I wanted silence.

I have seen true love all around me

Yet remained untouched by it.

I have seen the boy I love wrap his arms around another

I have seen friends blossom out and find love

I have seen eternity promised in the eyes of fresh lovers

I will never know the joy of life

I will never know what it is like to hear the words

“I love you.”

I will never again be a burden on anyone.