Lost in my Life

What’s wrong with me?

I don’t even know who I am.

I can’t hold on anymore.

Maybe I should just let go.

Maybe I should just fall.

I don’t want to live.

I don’t want to go.

This fantasy is making me insane.

I guess this wasn’t real after all.

I guess this isn’t life after all.

A lie, the truth, love and hate,

Nothing makes much sense.

Nothing ever did.

Nothing ever could.

This is something you call a dream.

This is something I wish I could call reality.

I wish I could hold a star

And bring it home with me.

I wish you’d go to hell,

So you’d stay away from me.

Just stay away from me.

I want to burn in hell

And feel the fire on my skin.

Hell is home.

God is too perfect.

He turned His back on me.