I'd turn back if I could

But really I can't

I try to make it better

But I always lie in the end

Why do you keep trusting

If the pain always comes

Why do you keep fighting

If you end up losing something else

I'm starting to see

That hell has no end

I feel guilty and sadistic

I'd beg for forgiveness if I didn't knew

It would never come

I don't want to lose your trust in me

But there's always the fact

That even I don't trust myself anymore

You should be inside my head sometimes

I would make you wish you've never knew me at all

That's how I know

Some smiles are just lies

Even the honest ones

How can you be tactless

And at the same time dishonest?

And I try to explain myself

But my words slip away

The lies become fluent in my head these days

The feeling I'm trying to express is as simple as this

No truth is ever simple

Because all truths have lies in them