Beautiful Torment

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she mentally screams

trapped—

can't find a way out

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perhaps she should look harder

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she's emotionally tired

and powerless to stop it

she turns to him for help

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but only sometimes does he notice

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rarely does he see

through the barrier of lies

the false smiles; the empty laughs

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her timeless struggle

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he leaves her alone

despite her desperate pleas

he thinks nothing is wrong

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and she never corrects him

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rather—

she loses herself in sorrow

perceiving she is truly alone

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this is her autophobia

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she clings to him tightly

hoping he will silently understand

and stay with her all the while

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he doesn't; he never does

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she feels neglected;

unimportant and worthless

she falls deeper

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something she can't escape

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she won't tell; won't explain

refusing to bring him down

with her consistent need

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simply for his presence

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wishing she could escape

hoping for him to be here

but knowing it can not be so

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he is her beautiful torment