How Can This Be True?

Now remember back when

Said do this do that

All will be all fine

I understand your teachings

And why you take me here

But honestly can you prove to me

What I should really fear

For you this seems easy

But to me makes no sense

How to make it sense

I want it to be easy

For my life

Eternal salvation

Sounds so great

But you cannot convince me

Not just yet

I have something else in mind

The teachings you teach

So great

For some

It’s a weak fight

But its just like the last night

That I will lie

Its my heart that is falling

Forever

For once this question I ask so hard

How could there a be a God

In your own personal truth

Denial seems so much easier

I seem to want to get to know him

More then any of you

But I just can’t

It only seems logical

I think you all lie to yourselves

But not let it really happen

My heart is deserving of living

I try to do my best

But my one challenge in life

Is to make sense of this

I could lie to myself

But that will not do

What can I do to

Break this one simple

Point to myself?