To tell someone to go away,

That you can not talk to them,

Be near them,

You can not let someone you love,

Watch you die,

Knowing that you will die soon,

Spontaneous death,

No.

Mine will be painful,

Slowly taking all my life away,

All the good times with it,

Though what to do with the time I have left,

Tell my family how much I love them,

Tell my friends I'm always there,

Tell nothing to the man I love,

Go see my hometown one last time,

I wanted my eternity,

Want you to know that I still love you,

With every breath,

Unconditionally,

Though I say nothing,

To anybody,

There is nobody I can trust,

What I have left- I don't want to waste,

Want to spend it all with the people I love,

Doing the things I love,

Before there is just a body,

A corpse being eaten by worms,

A memory nobody talks about,

A death to add to a list,

To be nothing,

But dead.