Happily Never After

Chapter 2: Promises Don’t Count

I lay on my bed in the dark staring out the window right next to me. The only light in the room was coming from the bright white light of the moon and the stars and the little light shinning under the door from the hallway. I kept on thinking how things were going to change now. I would probably have to move to a different house and different school but I don’t want to leave behind my best friend, Audra, or my high school crush, Kevin, behind either. I just found out two days ago that Kevin might like me.

“Hey Jane. Guess what I found out. I know someone has a crush on you!" Audra came running to me before first period started. I looked at her confused but filled with excitement.

“Who is it?" I asked excitedly, “Anyone I know? Please tell me it's not Mario. He can get so annoying!" Audra just laughed.

“No its not Mario but your right he can get annoying," Audra said," Well I don't know if I should tell you." She was buying time. Whenever Audra has a secret she is always trying to buy time and stall, which gets me even more excited and frustrated.

“Audra! You always do that. You have this huge secret and when you’re about to tell it you always stall. Just tell me please!" I finally got frustrated enough and I started to yell. When I was done I looked at Audra, “I’m so sorry!" At that moment Audra started to burst out laughing.

“It’s Kevin!" she said after her laughing moment. I was so shocked that I dropped all of my books for my morning classes and stared at Audra in shock.

“Are you serious?" I asked her. Audra shook her head yes then they looked at each other and started to scream. Whenever they were excited over something they would both scream ear-piercing shrieks. When we were done everyone was looking at us like we were both crazy. Filled with embarrassment, Audra and me both headed for first period as fast as we could get out of the crowded hallways.

I smiled for a little bit till I realized as soon as my happiness came so did my depression of my parents. I went back to thinking about my parents and realized that I had hated my own father. "How could you? How could you hate your own father? You love him. Don't you? Yes you do. Remember he's still your father you can't forget that. Just go to sleep and tell Audra tomorrow. It'll be a lot better. Audra has a fun way of cheering people up. If anyone can do it, it's Audra... No you hate him I mean look what he did. He is never home anymore, you never get to spend time with him. You should be mad at him forever!" My thoughts were fighting as if I had a white angel on one shoulder and a red devil on the other. Finally I just closed my eyes

“Jane?" A familiar voice sounded. The voice was next to me holding my hand. I looked at him. He had blonde hair and brown eyes. He wore a black, short-sleeved shirt with the big huge yellowish green, 'S' in a triangular figure but with an extra side. It was a shirt I’ve seen often, his Superman shirt. The boy was wearing black jeans too.

“Yeah?” I said looking at him, “Are you alright? You don't look so good.” I looked at him worried but with a smile.

“I’m fine. I've just been thinking, you know, about the two of us," He said. The smile dropped off my face and I began to look worried. He saw my worried look and gave me a hug. He gives everyone hugs. He's the sweetest boy I’ve ever met. What if I lost him? My whole world would fall apart. I lost my parents and now my boyfriend? How could this happen to me?

“Kevin, are you breaking up with me?" I asked him. I’ve seen this happen so often that so I knew what his next words were.

“I don't want to but you seem different now that your parents have broken up. I'm sorry but I’m sure you'll meet someone else... someone better then me. I promise," He said. I froze not moving, not speaking but there were tears in my eyes. “You promise? That is what dad said before he left the house. I hated those words. I hated him, yet still loved him with all my heart. How can a person hate someone but love them at the same time?" I thought to myself.

“Well then I guess this is a goodbye. I'll always remember you. Don't you forget that and I guess I have been different but weren’t you when your parents got divorced?" I asked him.

“No," he said with no problem at all.

“Well I do!" I said and I stormed away with tears in my eyes.

Suddenly something beneath me moved and I woke up. Mom was sitting on the end of my bed and was trying to get me to wake up and great ready for school. I sat up in my bed thinking about my dream with Kevin. My dreams of Kevin have never been about losing him. I’ve always dreamed about being in love with him not breaking up. As soon as I got out of bed I knew it was going to be a depressing day today. I just wonder what Audra will do today to cheer me up.