7/4/06 -fake-

-I’m not real

I feel so fake

Try to conceal

My mistake

-Of living

So close to you

Now I tell you

The horrible truth

-But I still want to be with you

-Well in my mind

I’m as real as they come

But I’ve been a lie

Since time had begun

-Every night, it’s not real

But I get lost in a dream

I cry myself to sleep

I’m not what I seem

-I’m a mix

Of that and this

I’m not enough

To deserve your kiss

-Thought about it

From time to time

Still thinking of it

My suicide

-I can’t see past this

Can you try to help me?

I’m so damn blind

Can you try, just to lie back to me?

-I can’t find

The realism of myself yet

But I already told you

Just can’t forget

-I’m an unholy sin

Gift-wrapped and topped with a bow

I’m not anything (nothing)

It’s just so deep it won’t show

-Soaked and frozen

I sit in the rain

The water’s stained

Of my blood and my pain

-Can you help me find

My place in this world?

Help me find my reality

I’m not a normal girl

-So lost and confused

I fall against the wall

Staring at you with soulless eyes, the color of blood-red

I had enough of this life, help me, I’m fake and I’m dead

-Lost everything already

Why start getting things back now?

I know you try to help me

But I’ll just hurt you somehow

-Haven’t you gotten enough of me yet?

I’m a damaged mess of lies

Your kiss might not mean a thing

Just leave me here to cry

-I hide behind these fake eyes

-Don’t try to fix me

I’m already broken