Razor Blades 2: Temptation

The silver blade stares at me

Mocking me and my pain

I want to bleed

I want to feel the pain again

But I promised myself I wouldn’t,

I wouldn’t seek their comfort

I wouldn’t resort to them again

But they seem to be beckoning to me

The way the light shines on them

I miss the feeling of the cold steel

Dragging across my pale skin

My scares have already faded,

And I can still remember

The stinging relief

And the tears and fear it brought

No longer matter to me

I just want to run the blade across my skin

But I know I shouldn’t

But the pain is building up,

Deep within me,

And soon all I will feel is pain,

I keep telling myself I can tolerate it

But I know I can’t

I don’t want to harbor all this unhappiness

I know I’m not strong enough

I miss the blades and the blood,

The pain and the comfort.

The silver blade seems to stare at me

Mercilessly mocking me and my pain

But I know I must try to fight

The temptation

Of razor blades.