A Lost Cause

I still haven't come up with a reason why

after all this and the growing years apart

You still are waiting, claiming to me there

is no one else on your mind or in your heart

I've been told that before, and always in the end

They'll always find a reason that I wasn't worth it,

all their feelings and opportunities wasted on a girl

who couldn't even make up her own mind

Some even knew the reason why I took that long

That every person I meet in the beginning is a

lier and a faker, my own lost cause to my initial mystery

And that fate will never let me have that person

I was hoping to never find

Love is just another cog in my heart

I don't even know if I can

So 'why' is what I'm asking, the question in my mind

I still don't understand the reasoning of your own

I'd wish you tell me, so that I'd know what to do wrong

and to prevent this ever happening again