One’s Darkness and Demons

Written By: Lady Alera Van Hexis

This was a self-predicted fall

I knew you’d kill me after all

And death is all I’ll ever know

This lost forgotten pain

You always had the good intentions

I never really knew you

I’m wounded and I’m screaming

For you have struck me down

I sliced into my waiting arms

And crumbled into madness

I thought the blood that poured from them

Would take me from my sadness

As death parades outside my door

And pulls me to the grave

I don’t know why I’m feeling this

Why I can’t break away

Sweet damnation is all I know

Raving madness and losing you

I fall into acid rain

No one rescues me again

Take away nothing

Give it all away

Try to find redemption

Relieve the pressure from the pain

Give my dreams some clarity

Rescue me from insanity

Don’t go and leave me

I don’t wanna be alone

Forever forgiving

Always forsaking

This joy we once had

Is gone from my memory

I had one to many

And I keep falling down

My memory is slipping

And here I go again

Knives are who I speak to

And somehow they talk to me

They write their words into my arm

And make me cry and bleed

Who are we really?

When we are alone we change

No one smiles to me

I am always alone

I never change

They all neglect me and leave me

To fend for myself

I can only watch out for myself

I can’t rely on anyone else

They watch me and analyze

Every move and every word

They don’t see through the lies

They never see the hurt

My mask covers me and forever

I watch the world pass me by

Who is really your friend?

Do they really care?

Diving into madness and pain

All I do is swim thorough rain

Wait, is it really rain

No it’s my own tears

Crying myself to sleep

It’s my own lullaby

Screaming into the night

I pray I’ll survive

The knives I hold are my inspiration

They are cold and hard

Who can love when

You are always hurting