This is my “Cry for Help”

oh and my empty screams
empty screams
full of empty dreams and
choked dry tears
butterfly wings falling shattering
dying and crying
and i’m screaming for someone
someone
someone
some
one
to please savemesavemesavemesaveme
and i’m wrapping myself up in covers of memories
of yesterday and the day before and weeks and months
when i was happy
but i’m buried buried suffococated and
laughing at my predicament
oh look what i did now with my silly
screams and shouts
death death death
and i can still taste his breath
on mine
so I cry harder
i’m a ball on the floor
waiting for
someone to rescue me
and lift me up
choking on stars and hopes that he gave me
dreams and lies he said would save me
and the razors that he said goodbye with
staring at me staring at me
like i should come to him come to him
like he’s trying to save me
ohyes he's trying his message is
ohsoclearohsoclear
heres the time and here’s the rhyme
and a pen and a pencil and a knife
are my way out and back
back to days and days ago
months and years ago
when I was happy
and i sliver with a last attempt at
happiness
cutting and cutting for every time he
said he loved me
and crying and crying
for every lie that i replied
because love is for fools
and i’ve fallen
deeper in
and i’m in love
with a ghost
because he’s gone he’s gone
he’s gone
and i’m just trying to
painfully say goodbye
and i choke on tears and death
painful regret
slumber and his old phone numbers
and letters and
pictures and
calendars
diaries
words
poems
memories
dreams
kisses
cries
knives
lies
cologne and
matching perfume
choking
on everything
as i say goodbye
and die with him