How can I face reality

When life closed the door o me?

Unsatisfying dreams are all I have left

A sweet daydream

A lustful nightmare

Smoky, hazy, eventually forgotten.

In reality, I can’t hope for anything.

No stretch of the imagination will make you mine.

I don’t want your pity

Don’t pretend to want me

When all you’d give me are icy kisses

So different from what you gave her.

I don’t want icy kisses from you

But I’ll give them to you.

An icy kiss in spirit as I leave this world

Why should I hope for your passionate kisses?

When my icy kiss will leave more of an imprint?

My cold lips against your warm skin

The memory of it never leaving you.

And if you see me lying still and cold

You’ll see where that icy kiss came from

And shudder at the thought –

Realizing that one warm kiss could have saved her.