You can never know someone too well...

The feeling of hatred pulsed throughout my body.

I never knew someone could be so deceitful.

For five years.

Five whole years I spent my life with him and I never guessed, never knew.

I didn't listen to the people around me; I rejected my family and friends.

I was stupid and naïve.

I was…….in love.

I trusted him too much to even, for a split second, think otherwise.

I believed in everything he said.

How can you feel so much hatred towards one person, yet feel love tugging at your heart.

I can't love him; no I can't, not after what he did to me.

How can you love someone who had been cheating on you before you even got married?

"I love you Dianne!" He shouted as I furiously packed my bags.

I turned around abruptly pointing my finger at him threateningly.

"Don't you dare say that to me, not after what you did, you never loved me, I was just there to do the house work, there for a good fuck when your whore wasn't around" I screamed at him.

"You don't understand! I do love you, no matter what you say I always will, I'm so-" He started.

"Don't even say it" I said darkly. "Words will not take away the pain Mark"

"I didn't mean to Dianne!" He said pleadingly.

"You didn't mean to? You didn't mean to?" I said mockingly. "Don't give me that bull shit Mark, it isn't a one night fling you're trying to make up for. It's five years of lies, pain, bullshitting and an affair" I slammed my luggage shut and carried them out of the room, slamming into him as I walked past.

"Dianne I don't know how to make it up to you, I didn't think about what I was doing!" He said.

"You sure didn't, but you have the rest of your life ahead to think about it now" I said giving him a fake smile.

"Dianne……please…….don't leave me" He begged.

All these emotions, of love, hatred, sadness, anger, everything mixed was just too overwhelming. I started sobbing uncontrollably.

"You can't take back what you done Mark, I can't stay knowing it could happen again" I cried.

"Stay because you love me. Forget about her, she's left me Dianne." He said.

"That may be true Mark but I cannot, even if I love you I have to let go. You hurt me too much; I wasted five years of my life staying with you. I trusted you and all along you were cheating on me, and now you are trying to get back with me just because she left you?!?! You're even worse then I thought you were! I may have been stupid to have stayed with you so long, but I am not stupid enough to get back with you now!" I exclaimed.

"You did not waste five years of your life, you still enjoyed it. I made a mistake Dianne, everyone makes mistakes!" He said sadly.

"I know they do, but people are not forgiven for every mistake they make, and this is one mistake that just can't be forgiven. What in your opinion is better? Knowing the truth and getting hurt, or living a lie and being happy? No matter what, I will always choose knowing the truth. Because there are people in my life who love me and even at the worst times they will be there for me." I said opening the door.

"I am here Dianne, I will always be here! I promise, just please, don't leave me!" He said grabbing my arm.

I wrenched it out of his grip. "Don't touch me! You may be here, but to me you aren’t. I don't even know who you are. I fell in love with a fake person, something that you made out to be, not who you really are." I said as tears cascaded down my face.

I turned around walking out the door. The cold night air hit my face sending shivers all over my body.

"Where are you going to go Dianne?" He asked trying to think of anyway to stop me.

"Anywhere, anywhere away from you" I stated walking down the road.

"Dianne, please don't go……I love you" He whispered following me.

I stopped and turned around. "Stop saying that! You have said that numerous times over the years we have been together…..I just – I just don't know what to believe anymore!" I exclaimed in agitation.

"Believe me Dianne. I am not lying, I never did. Every moment I spent with you, I loved and love. I love you. I never lied when I told you that. What I did; I know it was wrong. I don't know what I was thinking, it was a mistake, and I know I cannot take it back, but all I am asking for……is one last chance." He begged.

I closed my eyes and inhaled the cold air deeply. Sighing I opened my honey brown eyes and looked at him.

"I love you to Mark, a part of me always will. But I cannot take you back. I'm sorry" I said. I stared into his bright blue eyes glistening with tears in the moonlight. As a tiny tear escaped and slid down his cheek.

He closed his eyes as I gently leaned in and kissed the lone tear.

"Goodbye Mark" I whispered before walking away.

It was just the start of a new beginning.

It's my first time putting something up on FictionPress. I Hope you guys like it, it's supposed to be a short story so I don't think I'm going to continue it. Please review and tell me what you think!

I've edited this slightly, but I have previously published this on another site with my username as -misty-. If you read it before please don't think I'm plagiarising, it's all my own work.

Thank you for reading!