I'll still remember
The sharp words spoken from two unkind tongues
How shouts screamed through long distance, spread out miles
When the childishness emerged with immaturity

I'll still remember
The sharp words spoken from two unkind tongues
How shouts screamed through long distance, spread out miles
When the childishness emerged with immaturity

I'll still remember
A promise of forever that wasn't
In another new chapter of growing and learning
The very intimate moments of how we emerged

Of one, then two, then together

Where soft spoken memories still beg me
To sleep with the dead, unspoken answers
To fill in the gaping holes of what I don't know, or understand
Or why I fear the very inner reasons of letting you go

I watch you from afar, moving on, steady and forward
While I'm here, tucked hundreds of miles away
But I'm not lost, nor stuck in the silence of insecurity
I know what I was before you; before I was a child

I found that being with you I was more woman
Than I was alone, you - a new foundation of love
Where everything that I experienced with you
Was more than I'd ever known, or felt in a lifetime

Where our fingers intertwined around
A prose, a ryhme, and then our voices
(an absolute devine intervention)
Where I still crave you, just as much as I try to hide from you.

And I don't want to.

I don't want to know ..
(you're happy)
That you don't think about me

That after the secrets no longer feel like betrayal;
I will learn to smile

That after the heartache turns into a new heart beat;
I will learn to trust

That after the unkindness of words spoken no longer linger;
I will know I am healing

That after the ashes of yesterday are scattered;
I will no longer shed tears

That after the thinking of you can remain positive in my memory;
I will know the hurt has vanished

That after the hurt has subsided;
I will let go

That after the memories of loving you make me smile;
I will move on

That after I have moved on,
I will know

And I still don't want to know that
Until then ...

(it's perfectly okay to still love you)